220 pounds. I dropped 9 pounds since Saturday Morning.
Im having a very tough time dealing with my loss; my loss of eating; kind of like Im in mourning. The longer Im on this detox the more clear it is to me that I am a food junkie and have been since I was a kid. Im not starving myself at all. Im getting lots of nutrients through the drinks, fresh juices, detox soup, its the fact that I cant have the food I want, the food I feel I need to survive to hold on, the food that helps me get through the day, the food I turn to when Im feeling sad or angry or scared or feeling anything really. Im still sick, feel like I have a bad cold but I think that will pass as I continue this. My body is going through a huge change internally and its a hard barrier to cross.
The flip side - Im losing pounds and I KNOW what Im doing is life changing. Big stuff! Off to work...
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